Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Turkey Time

In approximately 8 hours I will be leaving on a jet plane to the windy city.  Leaving Atlanta's high of 74˚ for Chicago's Thanksgiving day low of 19˚.  Leaving a schmorgasboard of casseroles and dressing for a gluten-free Thanksgiving feast.  Leaving "the way we've always done it" for new family traditions.  And I couldn't be more thrilled.  Because no matter what's on the table, I'll be eating up this turkey:



And I'll be with family.  Creating new memories, new stories, and new traditions.  All while wearing real winter clothes.

Last night my Bible study group had a Thanksgiving feast.  Our leader, Linda, hosted us in her fab-u-lous house that is straight out of Southern Living. 







Good food, good company, good times! Happy Thanksgiving!!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Beautiful Death

For some reason the leaves have been changing later than normal this year.  And that is fine by me!  I've been trying to soak 'em up as much as possible.  There are a couple spots on my drive home from work where I usually let out a "YEAH!" when I see some awesome color combinations.  Here are a few pictures I took around my office building: 




The view from our parking deck.  Love the combination of all the fall colors!




These are from my neighborhood streets and duck pond.

There is one tree in particular that just about takes my breath away every time I pass it.  It's massive.  It's just now turning electric yellow so I'll post a pic soon.  I've heard it might be a ginkgo but you guys can help me identify it.  Whatever it is, it makes me so excited about a creative God!

I recently read a blog post about how ironic it is that the beauty we're enjoying during this season is actually death.  Anybody have any analogies/thoughts on this?

Friday, November 19, 2010

Real

My counselor is the bomb. (yes, I still say that)  Wednesday I started off my counseling session by telling her that our relationship wasn't "real."  Probbbbably not what she was expecting.  I absolutely love my counselor, and I love that I can be brutally honest with her.  She handled it like a pro, but asked what about it wasn't real to me.  The first 3 things that popped to mind:

1. It's one-sided.
2. Our time is structured and limited.
3. I pay her to talk to me.

I wasn't upset with her, I was just expressing some general frustrations with counseling.  And while there are limitations on our relationship, every relationship needs boundaries.  And our counseling relationship is actually not as "by the book" as you'd expect.  We laugh, we know each other outside of counseling, and she is an open book.  We are friends.  I can ask her anything.  And she is not afraid to bring the heat.  She doesn't mince words like the Slap Chop.

Wednesday as I was venting/wallowing/processing you know what she said to me?  "It seems like everything I'm saying is bouncing off of you like one of those 25¢ high-bouncy-balls from the mall."  So you know what she did?  Instead of using feeling words or formulas, she was quiet.  She didn't act fake or tell me everything would be ok.  She just sat with me.  She prayed.  She listened. 

And she told me she was "hoping for me."  I'm pretty sure I gave her a blank stare, but after the session I realized what she was doing.  She was hoping for me when I had lost hope.  She was praying for me when I couldn't pray.  She was pleading with God for me when I couldn't face Him.  And that was real. 

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Pillow Talk

I realize that unless my male readers have a female in their life, they probably have no idea what this title is referring to. Let me enlighten you. When a female's head hits the pillow, thoughts come flooding to her brain. It would be detrimental to her mental health to try to contain them.  These thoughts include an assessment of the days activities, replaying of the days conversations, and probably some thoughts about the future.  Usually a little more personal than table talk, more about struggles, insecurities, or just about a crush or cute boy you spotted.  Living with roommates for the past 8 years, I've had my share of pillow talk.  In my current house,  it could be called "pallette talk."  If you have yet to be forced to engage in pillow talk by a female, your time is coming.

Last night, I got all snuggly in my bed, flipped on the sound machine, and let out my nightly exhale/sigh.  Immediately my mind started going over the day. And I had this picture:  Jesus laying across from me, engaging with me in pillow talk! Strange, maybe, but awesome.  So I laid there and recounted the days activities, conversations, and talked some about the future. I think I was actually speaking out loud.  And I pictured Jesus laying there, holding some of my squishy pillows, just listening. 

This was definitely one of the most personal images of God I've had in a while.  Some people would argue that our view of God is too casual.  That we don't have enough respect or awe for a powerful, perfect, and holy God.  That we want Him to be our "buddy."  But I disagree.  Sometimes God seems too high and mighty to be involved in my day-to-day life.  Too distant, too busy, or too judgmental.  Like He is our boss that we don't want to bother unless we have a really important question.  But isn't this one of the amazing characteristics of God?  That He can be all powerful, all knowing, and perfectly holy, and still wants to be involved in every detail of my life.  That He can create the universe, hold it together, and still engage in pillow talk.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Starbucks and God


How in the world my brain connected Starbucks and God is beyond me.  Maybe because they are the coffee gods and their drinks produce wisdom and insight.  And youth, happiness, and power apparently.  But I do seem to be churning out analogies left and right these days, so here goes:

This morning on the way to work I'm sipping on my newest love, the Toffee Mocha Latte. I'm cradling that thing like my firstborn. I think I dreamed about it the night before.  I've doctored it appropriately, made sure it's the right temperature, and I'm ready to taste sheer satisfaction.

I have about a 15 minute drive from Starbucks to work, including lots of back roads and turns. So to prevent any of my precious gold from spilling out on the bumpy ride, I hold my holiday cup in my hand with a death grip.  Every time I turn a corner, put on brakes, or hit a pothole, I am holding that thing in the air and squeezing it tight. While the car is going for a heck of a ride, my coffee is safe and sound.

As I protected my prized possession from the outside world, I pictured God holding and protecting me.  He looks at us as pure gold.  He paid for us with His life.  He's holding us in His hand with a death grip.  He sees the bumps and turns coming, and He squeezes us higher and tighter.  We may be sloshed around a bit, but we never spill out.  We are secure in His hand.  When we feel the bumps, we look to God and ask what He is up to and why life is so hard.  But we don't see the whole picture.  All the while He has been holding us, never allowing us to be completely spilled, broken, or hurt.


"We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed." 

Monday, November 1, 2010

Weekend in Pictures

I have some disgruntled readers. Tonight at dinner they pounded their fists on the table and chanted "MORE POSTS! MORE POSTS!" I hear you, fans, and I'm here to make sure your morning internet searches turn into at least a 10 minute stall from work.

So, in an effort to increase quantity and frequency, and since eloquent posts flow a little more like molasses than wine, I hope you can settle for the weekend in pictures. Luckily I had the most photogenic and friggin' adorable photo subject this weekend.

The classic "shirt tucked in your underwear" look





Do you not want to eat up this yellow jacket??


Glow-in-the-dark halloween jammies. I got a matching set.

Will was not phased by Grandpa's spooky faces

More to come!